You Can Get It All.

Yeah. So, I Know I've Been Gone For A Minute. I'm Back, Though. &&I Got Shxt On My Mind.

I'm On Spring Break In South Carolina. Enjoying The Times &&Whatnot.
But On Another Note, I've Been Thinking About Some Shxt That I've Been Dealing With. &&Surprisingly, There's Some Quotes In My FAVORITE Song Right Now That Relate To The Shxt: Bow Wow "You Can Get It All". So I'ma Use Them, Because I Don't Want My Full Business Out.

"Yu Ever Want Something That You Know Yu Can't Have? &&The More Yu Know Yu Can't Have It, The More Yu Want It." -Intro
Yu'll Always Have Love For That Person That Took Yu To That Emotional Level That Yu'd Never Been To Before. Yu'll Always Have Love For That Person Who Yu Can Say Yu Loved, &&Truly Mean It. &&In Some Cases, Not Only Will Yu Have Love FOR Them, But Yu'll Always LOVE Them. Depending On The Type Of Person That Yu Are, That Shxt Can Get Hard. Especially When The Person Yu Feel This Way About Is Unattainable &&Inaccessible. Whether It Be Because They're In Another Relationship, Or Circumstances Just Aren't In Yur &&/Or The Other Person's Favor. &&Even When The Feeling Is Mutual, It's Still Hard Because Yu Both Know It Isn't A Good Situation. But Yu Can't Help Yah Feelings. Yu Can Only Be True To Them. The Saying, "Never Leave The One Yu Love For The One Yu Like", Is True. If Yu're In A Relationship, But Still Have These Feelings For The Previous Person That You Still Feel Some Type Of Way About, Evaluate Yu're Situation. Because Yah Current Nor Previous Person Deserves To Get Hurt By What May Result. But Yu Deserve The Best, Too. Personally, The Love Will ALWAYS Be There. But Yu Can't Let Yah Feelings For Me, &&Mine For Yu, To Fxck Up What Yu Have Going On. Unless Yu See It Being For The Better. Go With Yah Heart. Shxt Sounds Corny, But There Comes A Time When You Have To Leave The Games Behind, &&Be True To Yahself. Be Real. &&Be Real With Those You Care About &&Love. Be Real With Yah Feelings About &&TO Yah "Ex-Girl, Yah Current Girl, AND Yah Next Girl." Just...BE REAL.

“I Know Yu Heard My Reputation. Yu Don’t Think I Would Ever Do Right By Yu. Yu Think That If Yu &&I Was In A Relationship, I Would Never Be True. Yu Think That Everything I Say Is Straight Game. &&To Me, Yu’re Just Another New Name. But What I’m Trying To Tell Yu, For Every Man, There’s A Woman That’ll Make Him Change.” -Top Of First Verse
Something A Little Lighter, But Still Deep...It's Been Madd Times &&Still Are Now When I Could Relate To These Lines. Including With The Previous Person Above. But More Recently, The 4th Line, "Yu Think That Everything I Say Is Straight Game", Makes Me Laugh. Just Because Somebody That I've Gotten "Acquainted" With Lately, Cool As Shxt, Fxck With Him Hardbody &&Shxt Like That, Said That I Spit Game. But I Think The Same Thing About Him. Go Figure( ;. But Anyways...For The Record, I Don't Spit Anything. [[Not Directed To Anybody...]] I Say What I Feel, Not What I Think You Want To Hear. I Care About What I Want To SAY, Not What A Dude May Want To Hear. But Everybody Doesn't Think Like That. The Game Has BEEN Played Out. But...People Still Try To Deal Old Cards. People Just Need To Be REAL. I Can't Stress How I Feel About That Enough. I Base Alot Of My Relationships Or Even Just Friendships On FEELINGS. How I Feel About Yu, What Yu Say Is How Yu Feel About Me, &&How I THINK Yu Feel About Me. I Think That For Any Person, Yu Should Build Off Of That. There's NOTHING Wrong With Catching Feelings. &&There's No TIME Limit On Catching Feelings. Like I Said Before, Yu Can't Help Yah Feelings. &&Personally, I'm Not One To Run From Nor Hide My Feelings. Males Have Too Much Of A Tendency To Do That. &&They Shouldn't. If Females Can Be Real With How They Feel About Males, Males, Respect That &&Be Real With Females How Yu Feel About Them. Also, Give People A Chance. I Know I Have A MAJOR Problem Doing That. I'm Madd Defensive Because I've Been Hurt Before, &&That May Come Off As "Being On That Alphabet" [Lol]. Forget What Yu've Heard &&Get To Know The Person. Alot Of Times, Shxt Turns Out COMPLETELY Different. &&Don't Miss Out On Something Good For Yu &&In Yah Future, Because Yu're Still Faulting Yah Past. ALWAYS Separate The Past From The Present. &&Last, When It Comes To The Ex &&Current Situation: FINISH&&Be Done With Something BEFORE Yu Start Something Else. &&If Yu Can't Be Done With The First, Then CONTINUE Fxckin' With The First. Because The Next Doesn't Deserve The Baggage. SOMEBODY Ends Up Getting Hurt, Regardless, But It's Never Yu. Look Out For Other People's Feelings, &&Be True To Yours...Just Be REAL.

I Don't Want To Go Any Further; I Don't Want To Get Too Personal...So, Yeah. I Hope If Yu Read This, Yu Can Take Something From It. The World Is Changing. There's Nothing Wrong With Changing With It; Especially If It's For The Better; For The Better Person In Yu; &&For The Better Yu Can Bring To Somebody Else [Somebody Yu're Pursuing, Somebody Yu're With, Somebody Yu WERE With, Or That Person Who Yu've Yet To Have Met].

I'm Out.

Love, Dae.

Drifting.

So, This Fat, Light Skin Jawn Just Got Me Lightttt! I Love Wearing Sweat Pants. So I Wear Basketball Shorts Underneath Them, &&Let My Sweats Sag A Little. Something Slight. So I'm Walking Off The Yard, About To Head Into My Dorm, And This Bxtch, Looked Like Somebody's Moms, Clearly Had To Have Been Staring At My Ass As She Walked Behind Me. Because She Comes Up Beside Me, While I'm On The Phone, && Says: "Excuse Me. Do You Know Your Pants Are Sagging?" So, I Looked At Her Madd Salty, Like: "Yeah..." And This Bxtch Gave Me This Look Like, White Woman To Black Man: Ugh. You're A Disgrace To Society. So, I Said: "...Thank You?!" As She Walks Off. &&She Says: "Uh Huh". Here's A Picture...I'll Let You Decide If There's An Issue:

She Made Me So Angry. I'm Like, Bxtch...You're Addressing The Fact That My Sweat Pants Are Revealing The Basketball Shorts That I'm Wearing Underneath?? Just Because I'm A Female, I Can't Sag Some Sweats? You NEED To Be Addressing These Hoes Walking Around Here On Campus Wearing 4 Inch Heel Boots && Leggings. Fxck Outta Here. My Apologies For Offending Anyone, But That Shxt Irritated All Shxt Outta Me.



Yooooooooo...
This DJ Yoda Track With Lil' Wayne, Birdman, Maino, Kardinal Offishall, Wes Fif, Trae, Hunt, & Joe Young Is
RIDICULOUSSSSSSSS.
I Fxcks With This Shxt, HARDBODY.
[[It's Playing Now If You Didn't Realize.]]

Solid Collateral.

Basically, It's A Couple Things On My Mind Right Now:

1. I've Completely Written Some People Off. I Def. Went On A Deleting Spree Last Night On My Facebook Page. && Basically Deleted Everybody From Howard That I Don't Talk To.

2. Oh Yeah, It's Official...

I'm Transferring In The Fall.

To Where, Hasn't Been Decided Yet.

3. Drake's Mixtape, So Far Gone, Is BANANAAAAS. This Dude Is Def. On The Come-Up && He's Fxckin With The Right Nigga: Lil Wayne. If You Haven't Realized Yet, The Song Playing Is A Joint Off The Mixtape. It's Hot, Right? Yeah, So Check It Out. It's Some Good Shxt. November 18th...It Goes Down.

4. The Dream's Song, "Rockin That Thang", Has Been Out Since December, But It's Still A HOT Ass Track! I'm A Little Disappointed In The Video, Because It Reminds Me Of His Other Videos: Cheap. HOWEVER, He Does Something Right Before The First Chorus In The Video, That I Think Is So FLY. I'm A Dancer, So I Like Dancing Hard And Big [[No Sexual Connotation; Lol]], But I Love Small, Subtle Moves. &&This Little Move That He Does At 1:05 Is Hot As Shxt( :.

5. I Fully Believe In Karma. It Lives && It Lives Strong. So, I Love My Newest Tattoo!

6. Keri Hilson's New Song, "Alienated", Is Cute.

7. Chris Brown & Rihanna. Nobody Knows The Story BUT Them. BUT...Either Way, Domestic Violence Is Wrong. My Having Witnessed It With My Moms, And Being A Victim Of It, I KNOW That It's A Serious Matter, And Ultimately, Chris Is Wrong. But USUALLY, For Every Action, There's A Reciprocated Cause. So, Rihanna May Have Provoked It. Either Way, Though, Chris Fxcked Up. But I Do Wish People Would Chill Off Him. BOTH Of Them Are Human. People Need To Mind Their Business, Stop Speculating, &&Pray That They Get Through What They're Going Through. Domestic Violence Is Hard In Its Own, But The Fact That They're Dealing With Their Situation On A STAGE And In The MEDIA, Is Even Harder. I Wish Them Both The Best. [[But On A Lighter Note, This Video Is Wrong Because It's A Serious Situation, But It's Funny.]]

That's All I Have To Talk About Tonight. I'll Re-Up On Here Later. I'm OUTT.

Love,

Dae

Diamond Bullets.

Life Takes You On A Constant && Consistent ROLLERCOASTER. It Offers Straight Rides, Curves, Twists, Turns, Upside-Downs, Tilts. But It's Always, EVENTUALLY, Supposed To Straighten Out...In Order To Get Off. But Unlike Rollercoasters, You Never Know If && When You'll Finally Be Able To Get Off. Just EVENTUALLY.

There's Times In Life Where You Find Out So Much About Yourself In Such A Short Amount Of Time, That It's...OVERWHELMING. There Also Comes Those Times In Life Where You Find Out More About Others. More Than You Would Like To Have Learned, &&It's Nothing Far From...Hurtful. But Enlightening.

Being 18, At This Point Of My Life, && In College...Is An Experience. A HARD One, To Say The Least. && The Necessary 'Finding Who You Are' And The Mistake Of 'FORGETTING Who You Are' Collide In Ways That You Wouldn't Imagine. But Subconsciously, You Know The Concepts Are Present.

At Howard (And Any Other HBCU), Finding Who You Are Can Be Positive Or Negative. It Can Make You Happy Or Upset You. I've Had The Luxury Of Having And Feeling Both Ways.

People's Minds And Concepts Of Things Here Are So...Excuse The Language...FXCKED UP. But On A Non-Personal && Universal Focus, Basically, Black On Black Racism FURTHER Exceeds Black On White Racism. And It's Truly SAD && DISHEARTENING. In A World Where Everything Is Based On Survival Of The Fittest, It's DISGUSTING To Have To Defend Yourself WITHIN Your Own Race. Here, You Have Others Of Your Same Race, At A Place That's SUPPOSED To Be About Black Scholarship && Empowering The Young Black Community, Degrading One Another. You Have Beauty Being Defined As Everything OTHER Than What It Should Be Defined As. My Generation Can't Be Anything But Disappointing To Those Before Us. We Take Everything Positive And Find Some Way Of Bringing Out A Negativity In It. I Love This Life And Time I Live In...But It's FAR From Admirable.

On The Other Side Of Things, 'Forgetting Who You Are' Is So Easy. Through 'Finding Who You Are', You Tend To Forget About Everything Old, Because Your Mind Is Clogged With Everything New, That You...CONFORM To Everything You Find Out About Yourself As It Comes Along; Throwing Away Everything Old; Even Those Little Old Things That Made And Continue To Make You YOU. With Throwing Away The Old, And Conforming To The New, You 'Forget Who You Are'. &&With That, You 'Forget WHO Contributed To Making You Who You Are'. In Common Terms, You Begin Acting "Brand New".

There's Nothing Wrong With Changing. But There Can Always, However, Be Something Wrong With The Way In Which You Do So. Change Is Inevitable. And While Conformity Is Inevitable, Too, It's Far From Logical. I've, Recently, Had The Pleasure Of Witnessing This Change (Or More So, Conformity) In Certain People; Where They've COMPLETELY Lost Sight Of Who They Are, && Have Instead Focused On Who They WANT To Be. They've COMPLETELY Forgotten About Those Who've Helped Them Grow. Who've Supported Them. Who've Had Their Back.

So, My Words To Them: You've Officially Burned The Bridge That Led To Me, My Friendship, And My Support. You Reap What You Sow. And Anybody Else Who Has Witnessed This, I Encourage You To Say The Same To Those Who've "Forgotten" About You.

You Live Life With A Purpose. You Live Life To Be A Positive Attribute To Your Family, Your Community, YOUR World. You Live Life To ENCOURAGE, Not Degrade. To APPRECIATE. You Experience Life With Those That Are Deserving Of Sharing This Gift Of Life With You. Those That Aren't Are Meant To Live Their Life Without The Gift Of YOU.

I Close This In Saying, I've Come To This Realization Of Who I Am. My Growth Is Far From Done, And My Learning Continues. But Some Things I've Learned Thus Far Are:
1. I Can't Be Concerned With Others And What They're Doing With Their Lives. Nor SHOULD Others Be Concerned With Mine.
2. Beauty Is The Exact Opposite Of What Is Defined As Today. ESPECIALLY, Here At Howard University.
3. Those That Don't Appreciate Me, Don't DESERVE Me. Thus, A Farewell To All Things Between Me And Those Persons, Past And Present, Is Necessary.
4. Remember Who And What I Was RAISED To Be. Remember The Values Instilled IN Me.
5. That I Am Deserving. And OTHERS Are As Well.

I Wish That Others My Age Would Realize The Same...And Especially The Latter.



Forever Changing,

Chardae` A. Williams

Hoe Tendencies

If she's a hoe, then that makes him one, too.
Because he's one of the muhfxckas I let screw.
That's true.
But I mean, if you don't like it,
We can check the characteristics & requirements.
Of being a hoe, since that's what you're spreading to the environment.
Take the time to sit,
And admire this
Fresh dose of enlightenment.
See, if she just rushes, into fxcking him,
Without getting to know him...
Then That could make me a hoe to you & them.
But it's always been quality over quantity.
Follow me?
So, the countdown of days, minutes, or seconds
Is irrelevant.
Check it...
You can't put her in hoe prison for life with no chance of a clean name.
Because with Premature fxckin', there aint no designated time frame,
Before she can get it from behind, hopefully slurring his name.
Time is gain.
So, if her fxckin' him early
Makes her dirty,
Then he's a hoe defaultly.
But if you think that gives you the right to claim
Her as a hoe, then you bearing the name.
Because same recognize same.
And while we're on the subject,
To lovely muhfxckin' ladies:
If you like or fxck with a nigga slightly,
But he moves on and fxcks with another lady,
That does not mean you can call her a hoe.
That just let's you know,
It's a possibility
That either you or your p***y
Wasn't working on the l-o,
So your dude had to go.
And for that, she's not a hoe.
Now I know that may be a blow,
But yo,
Sometimes that's the way life goes.
Now...
See,
The fxcked up thing about this hoe constitution
Is that if she and him
Do she and him,
she's the only one getting mentioned
Because she aint him.
So he gets to keep goin'
Like "aint no stain on him".
This...
Double standard.
Constant and consistent.
Will never be eliminated.
So...
Ladies we just must conform.
Yeah, "you can fxck whoever you liiiiike"
As many times as you like.
Just know that too much of that shxt
Can and will
Restrict you
From being non-permitted
To the words skeechee, hoe, and the rest on the list.
So it's better to fxck late,
Or shxt...be celibate.
Fxck it.
I'll speak from experience,
Knowing that celibacy may just be an impossible adjustment.
Be smart about your fxckin'.
Oh, and you may have one last question:
If she fxcks a hoe, does that make her a hoe?
Uhm...no no no.

She's not a hoe.
She either didn't know or is just madd slow.
Just stay in the know.
&&Remember the double standard:
You'll be the hoe. And he may be the hoe, too.
But he'll get the standing ovation,
Because no matter how it happened,
HE fxcked you.

Dae

Introduction Of...My Truth.

Truth is defined as a verified, indisputable fact, proposition, principle, etc. Truth is also defined as HONESTY and INTEGRITY. Both of which are synonymously associated with...truth. But what defines us isn't the truth we emit, the honesty we possess, nor the integrity we attain. What defines us is everything far from the truth; our inaccuracies, our issues, our LACK of truth, honesty, and integrity. What defines us is our search, embarkment upon, finding, and then implementation of...The Truth.

Through this blog, I encourage you to open your mind to the deepest of thoughts, maybe even the lowest of thoughts. And I encourage you to re-act and respond INTELLIGENTLY to the most often crooked, non-dimensional, and non-assymetrical thoughts that I share with you through my search in finding the truth in them. Thus, we can come to the enlightenment of our own truths.

But there is no such thing as THE truth. Because, honestly, the truth is never certain. Although it may be verified and because of that, people choose not to dispute them, it always starts off as someone's...THOUGHTS. Intuitions. Notions. Opinions. Upon which they, then, search to find the validity within them.

So...I'm on a search to find my own truths. And am inviting you to do so with me. But don't get offended or defensive. Because these are just...MY truths. And inevitably...merely, just my thoughts, feelings, and notions.

Dae